Hello my loves. I have been on a sabbatical but it was not by choice. If you follow me on social media, you know we have recently purchased a home. Well, we were set to close today, November 23, however it fell through. That’s the bad news. The good news is we have found a new home and are now set to close somewhere around the 6th of December. Now, while that may sound like great news and I thank you in advance for your congratulations, I must tell you this is some wild roller coaster ride and I do not like roller coaster rides, figuratively or literally.
Let me first start off by affirming my stubborn nomad spirit. At the young age of 37 years old, I have lived in at least 100 places, had hundreds of jobs, and never had any intent, in life, of settling in one place (insert stable loving McRush). I never wanted to buy a home but after having the benefits pointed out to me by my husband and best friend as well as my very selfish thought process on the matter, I decided to take the leap. After all, I can just sell it later and get us a nice RV and continue to travel, maybe this time outside of America.
Today is November 23. We did not close. I am upset about that, not because we did not get that particular house but because our sorry landlord did not extend the courtesy of allowing us the ability of being able to stay in our home so that we do not end up in an in-between status. Guess where we are? Yup, you guessed it. In between homes.
Let me tell you the back story. You all know we were once homeless after the housing market/job crash. We did not whine or beg and plea for handouts (even though we had once applied for assistance for food but were denied because we did not have an address. Weird, seeing as we were homeless). But instead worked hard and pushed through and are now able to tell our story. Anyhow. We stumbled across a run down apartment complex in an even more run down neighborhood and were blessed to be able to not only put down a small deposit but were approved to move in immediately. We stayed there one year and moved to another place we had also stumbled upon. The place was initially being managed by one property management company but upon signing our next lease we were advised that a company called Johnson Wilson Real Estate would be taking over as the new property management company. We didn’t care, we paid our rent on time and minded our business, or businesses, haha, get it…? Anywho. One day the new property manager of JWR came to check out the property, which was completely understandable because they should want to check out their newly acquired properties. We joked and handled our business then were done. Well one day this new Manager decided to introduce herself, her name was Mary. I didn’t like her and she didn’t like me, but again, I didn’t care, we paid our rent on time and minded our business. When we decided to buy a home we let them know and we started working on financing and such with the RE part of the company. During this time our lease was nearing an end so we, JWR (now Heritage Property) and our family, decided that it would be best if we went month to month so we wouldn’t have to break a lease etc.; This was in July of this year. Well, come October they sent us a letter stating we must sign a lease by October 20. I kept meaning to call and get it sorted out/verified but I kept getting wrapped up in other things. On the 20th of October, Mary calls me and informs me that if we do not sign a lease for either 6 months or one year, they will start the eviction process. I, of course, remind her that we have a letter from their office stating we will go month to month. She says there is nothing she can do about that. I inform her that since we are under contract on a home we cannot sign a lease. She is adamant and so am I. she states we need to put in our thirty day notice or risk facing an eviction on our record which of course would hinder our home buying process. Reluctantly and angrily, I write the letter which puts us out of our home on November 19. That wasn’t so horrible considering, remind you, that we were set to close on November 23. A few days in a hotel, right? Wrong. Fast forward to today where we are now forced to shell out monies that is needed for our down payment to get hotels every night! Why every night you ask? Well, that’s a good question. To answer your question, it is the week of thanksgiving so rooms that are weekly are booked until after the holiday which means we can spend anywhere from 90 to 120 dollars a night.
I tell you, people will attempt to screw you over with no reason or just cause, if ever there were a good reason to see someone down. So I am sitting in a friends bathroom blogging on word because the wifi is not connected to my laptop. #LeStruggle
We all know that the RushBunch is strong so no worries. Now, if this Mortgage company will just push on so we can get in our house and I can lay down in my home, I will be a very happy Rush.
-Rush
Slacking
I really am trying to stay on top of blogging and keeping you all up to date on the happenings of the RushBunch but you know me, I just get so slack when it comes to blogging or sleeping, I oftentimes choose sleep. As crazy and chaotic as that sounds, I sometimes will grab a nap instead of my laptop.
As I am typing this I am literally drained and all I want to do is go to sleep however today is a birthday and the house is all the way live, not that its any different from any other day But they are wired on mini cupcakes and ice cream.
I believe I am truly out to sabotage myself. Every since I have started homeschooling and running my business from home, my home simply has no structure. I am hoping that this move will assist me in re implementing things like early bed times, hair days, general house cleaning day, and the like instead of me deciding on a whim what I am going to do that day.
I remember the days when I got up at 5:15 to prepare for my daily prayer/motivational call at 5:30 and my days flowed so smoothly because the night before I had sat down to schedule out the entire day all the way down to the littles bedtime at 7:30. Oh how I miss those days. Its funny when you break a cycle its hard to get it going again. I am glad to have known such structure and have something to work towards because if not, I would not know life could be more relaxed and thus not lose my mind!
Anyhow enough rambling, although that is pretty much what my blogs are…
Today was supposed to be a lounge around day but yes, we forgot we were going to do something for the birthday girl. The good news is our children are very easy to please so when we asked her what she wanted to do, she said have a pizza party and watch a movie. When asked what she wanted for her birthday, she replied, “flowers”. DONE! the downside is whenever we leave the house we are oftentimes gone for hours because we remember something else that needed to be done. Needless to say we didn’t get home until after 7:45 so the whole 8 o’clock bedtime is surely out the window. I have learned to be okay with that.
it is 10:01pm and we have just started the go-to-bed process with the littles so we are looking at a 12:30 bedtime… sigh.
One day I will get to bed by 10 pm. Today is not that day…tomorrow isn’t looking to good either.
-Rush
Come ‘gen say whet?
So I had always be known to say things like speak those things as though they be so, and you have not because you as not and even go as far as things happen for a reason. What I had never taken into consideration, as lame as it may sound, is the depth of those words. How ignorant I felt towards myself. I mean, obviously the words mean something and obviously it is in your best interest to speak life into your life, I even tell my children all the time. I had begin to feel like that preacher from Left Behind (the first one) who was left here on earth after the rapture when he realized he was just repeating words and quoting scripture with no spiritual backing.
I believe that is what many of us are doing. We quote something because it sounds good but what does it mean really and are you actually applying it to your life? As a motivational speaker I know that it is extremely important to be sure you are maintaining a positive mental state as often as possible in order to ‘manifest’ what you are aiming to achieve, but what I am now learning about is vibes. Yes those same vibes from the eighties when it was hip to say, “we’re vibing” or “You’re killing my vibe”. Yes it is a real thing.
It is also very important that you rid your life of toxic people and relationships. This is one of the more difficult things you need to do in order to align yourself with greatness. We oftentimes feel as if we have to keep some relationships active and prominent in our lives but none of this is true. People are in your life always for a purpose, once this purpose is served you have no obligations to them. No matter what the connection, it is not necessarily a life long connection, yes even your parents. Parents serve a purpose to raise you. In raising you, they are expected to nurture, embrace, encourage, and support you. In addition to teaching you about life they should prepare you as well. Now, some parents fall a little short of this but I believe that the majority of the time, parents do what is best for you. There are some people who are incapable of being selfless for someone no matter how much they love them and unfortunately that is what causes the disconnect. But it is okay to sever ties, it really is. It doesn’t mean you love them any less, it just means you have now evolved and are learning to love yourself.
Loving yourself will only be possible when you know what and who is healthy for you and who is not.
You know I normally do not go on these types of rants but today i felt compelled to pass on, well, Good vibes.
So lets recap… 1. Speak good things often… VERY often. 2. Seperate yourself from people who do not assist you in doing #1 (bringing up your past, telling you you can’t, talking about you, etc). 3.Keep up the good vibes.
-Rush
A boring busy day
Today has been a continuation of packing and cleaning. I added the task of conditioning and detangling the girls hair as well as my own and for all of my natural hair sisters you know how tiresome this can be. But alas I managed to get it all done in a record breaking 3 hours. I will not make mention the fact that this did not include ‘doing’ their hair, we all went puffed out today.
As you already know my family has embarked on a journey in search of truth as incorporated in our homeschool academics but it has taken on a task in itself. Today we sat down with a wonderful friend of mine and her family and we broke bread together as they enlightened us on some facts while debunking some myths on their religion. It was absolutely amazing to converse with her, her mother and father, and her husband whom is in a position of high authority (If my research serves me correctly). I am so enlightened. It is a rare thing for me to find an end to my line of questioning because answers usually have me in a position to pose a follow up. But why do I feel like my whole life was a lie growing up, or shall I say a shadow. Anyhow, the research will continue but I was given plenty of literature to halt me on the journey for the moment as I study and show myself approved.
As far as homeschooling, today was a very light work day indeed. We worked primarily off of tablets and our index card system. I got a little bit of packing in and a little bit of cleaning. Did I mention how much I hate packing? how about cleaning? yeah, oh, okay.
I am beyond exhausted but I am grateful any how. Let me tell you how I just KNEW I was going to win the $198 million powerball yesterday! In all my knowing and believing I did not pick one single number NOT ONE! Why is this happening to me? I don’t ask for all the money in the world, just $198,000,000 I mean dang. I wrote out a list of all the awesome things I would do with it too ya’ll. Pay of debts, buy out our mortgage, charity, my shelter, savings, college funds, the works! But noooooooo, God says I need to work a lil’ more. I’ll be obedient and keep pressing on but I just want you all to know that I am not to holy for a few million dollars. Going to work on my positive vibrations. iRush
Where we are.
Hello my loves. I have not been blogging as of late because everything seems to be on a whim right now and completely unstructured. If you think your life is hectic, try running a business where you are consistently running other peoples businesses while maintaining your household, homeschooling, packing, and self evaluating simultaneously with 9 children and NO schedule! Ugh. it is literally a madhouse around here. I can’t ever find what I am looking for until I am no longer looking for it but have moved on to looking for something else. Dinner often slips my mind and we wound up eating out, which I absolutely hate. and sleeping in has become a staple for my sanity however I am usually abruptly awakened by screaming hollering babies and children whom have clearly lost their minds because they are running through my house. I oftentimes, lately, feel like I am in a prank reality show.
But alas, all is not doomed. We recently bought a house, in case you did not catch the memo on my personal social media. I have started taking classes on the side to further advance my platform for Rush Consulting Firm, and we have finally closed our Social Services case so no more back and forth to court. That alone was a weight lifted off of me and McRush because though it was not the path we chose to take, we took it in stride. Sometime soon we will be back in court to further finalize the decision for good. I am sure I will get a lashing from family but, you cannot please everyone so, I digress, I only know how to do what I feel is best and have prayed about. (If you have no idea what I am talking about, red back some and you will be filled in.)
Homeschooling.
Homeschooling the RushBunch is still exciting and new everyday. On my extra hectic days we choose the Montessori approach. I always have what they should be learning for the day, usually the week, and they have to work together as a unit to get their works completed. However, I cannot wait until we move into our new home an get situated so we can get back to class as usual. I am trying to convince McRush to paint the wall in chalk paint in the classroom. I don’t believe I am even considering such a task. Years ago I was adamant on not doing such as thing as I felt it would promote writing on wall. But alas, I have evolved. I lift my wine glass and shout, “write away children! Write away”. It is really something how you watch your children grow and evolve only to realize your own evolution in the end.
Speaking of evolution, McRush and I have found ourselves on a new Spiritual journey.
Life really has a way of making you reevaluate life. I love it and I am excited for the growth. I won’t be keeping you updated because (shhhh) there may be a book. I may post a question to ponder here and there for general purposes so be ready to have a discussion.
-Rush
I never knew.
Hello Gems!!!
It has been a couple of weeks since I posted and a little more than that since I had a rant but….here it goes.
Did you know that I was not light skinned or skin, or skint (smh). Apparently a few women whom deemed me unqualified to speak out for people, my people, because I am brown skinned and therefore I am somehow in a category that places me in a realm of privileged.
Now, I do not necessarily refute this but being an entrepreneur I have not had to endure this in the working world. A young lady posted about light skinned people basically carrying their privilege around with heads touted in the air proudly. I made the mistake of commenting on her post stating that we need to stop allowing the divide within our race and stand together. I gave an example of my cousin and the trauma she went through and ultimately spilling my own beans out of frustration and bewilderment as to how they just did not get it. Well, let me tell you, these ladies had a field day demeaning my complexion (or my thoughts of it) as well as my character, views, intelligence, etc. I looked on in amazement that the fact that I was speaking in unity and NOT dark skinned was an issue. I HONESTLY do not know how what I was saying was taken so far out of context in a matter of minutes. Now, I LOVE my extra dose of melanin people, their complexion is so very beautiful to me but these particular ladies attitude… straight horrible. I never one time demeaned anyone or their views, I was even agreeing with them but please do not get it twisted, I am still black. I was raised to not speak to people in a manner I did not want to be spoken to. This conversation had my heart beating so fast and my palms sweaty. Why do we scream out BLACK LIVES MATTER yet continue the divide within our own race? No. One. Else. Does. This. Not like we do. but we want equality and justice but we continue to rob, kill, and destroy one another. We cannot even respect ourselves to stand united. What are we going to do with equality? Yes I am aware it exists but don’t blame me for it. I did not Write a memo to God stating I will only go to earth if you make me…..smh.
So, I open up the dialogue for advice and conversation. I am posting the conversation below. But first this:
“You must use the dark skin slaves vs. the light skin slaves and the light skin slaves against the dark skin slaves” -Willie Lynch
post on facebook: ‘Okay so I’m still mad, how does a person deal with opression everyday and then still fix their mouth to say someone else’s opression doesn’t exist because it’s one form they don’t experience? I’m calling out all light skin people, do fucking better. If I catch you I will come for you, with all of the fury I have stored in this short fluffy body I swear!’ (I left the typos intentionally as to not tamper with her words)
My (along with everyone else’s reply. ( I will try to remove names because I do not want anyone confronting these ladies because they are still my sisters)
Me:
Maisha Rush 
👀 the biggest problem, in my opinion, is how WE as black women choose to seperate our struggles! We are all black no matter what the complexion. We all have issues that we shouldn’t have to go through but intead of supportinng one another we try to demean one another in attempts to exemplify how our light skin isssues are bigger than our dark skin issues and vice versa. I watched as my dark skin cousin was constantly told that she was pretty for a dark skin girl girl. Meanwhile I was being rejected because I was so called light skin and proceeded to have a nasty attitude by thinking I was better than someone else. I have seen the problems from both spectrums and her problem was not bigger than my problems and my problems were not bigger than her problems, but collectively WE had a problem as black women. There is too much division. Smh it is time out for this, like literally, we are being killed in drones and here we sit sulking and complaining about complexion issues. #PettyMinds
👀 the biggest problem, in my opinion, is how WE as black women choose to seperate our struggles! We are all black no matter what the complexion. We all have issues that we shouldn’t have to go through but intead of supportinng one another we try to demean one another in attempts to exemplify how our light skin isssues are bigger than our dark skin issues and vice versa. I watched as my dark skin cousin was constantly told that she was pretty for a dark skin girl girl. Meanwhile I was being rejected because I was so called light skin and proceeded to have a nasty attitude by thinking I was better than someone else. I have seen the problems from both spectrums and her problem was not bigger than my problems and my problems were not bigger than her problems, but collectively WE had a problem as black women. There is too much division. Smh it is time out for this, like literally, we are being killed in drones and here we sit sulking and complaining about complexion issues. #PettyMinds
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Maisha Rush I get that. I cried with my cousin. Defended my cousin. FOUGHT for my cousin. I get it, hell, I almosted hated light skin people in the midst of it. It is sad. I love her melanin, even more than she did. Our relationship was cut off because she one day decided to hate me too, even still not loving herself. So yes, despite your opinion, I have seen the pain from both spectrums ( light vs dark).
Ebony Murphy-Root Maisha Rush There is no ‘both spectrums’.
And colorism is not the result of ‘low self esteem’ and ‘even still not loving yourself’. I can understand why she stopped talking to you though, if this is how you talked to her. Would you be friends with a white person who told you racism was a result of not loving yourself enough? Can you truly not hear how obtuse that sounds?
Maisha Rush What are you even talking about? I’ve never once mentioned how I spoke to my cousin all I did was uplift her and encourage her and tell her how beautiful she was and how she didn’t have to listen to the things that people were saying about her. I only speak now about knowing botj spectrums because I seen the pain that she went through and I know the pain that I went through and my bottom line is we are black women, we need to uplift and encourage and Inspire one another learn to be there for each other. I have no idea what you THINK you read but I impore you to re read. I never said one was better than the other or she should not feel the way she felt after suffering the name calling. I just reminded her. How beautiful she was. She will even tell you that. Tje reasom she atopped talking to me is because she could not see past the pain and she apologized to me for that. So please do not come for me because you misinterpreted what I said. All you had to do was ask for clarification instead of attacking my opinion.
Kio Shaala Sapey I agree with you coming from a 3girl household with 3 extreme variations of skin tones. Thank good my mother called out every ignorant comment directed and it taught is to love our differences and embrance them. 
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Maisha Rush @ Heather Lovechild I totally agree. However society says otherwise. I have been arguing about it all my life. But thanks for the verification.
Maisha Rush Getting tired of being told I am too light to know the real struggles but too dark to reap the privileges.
India Camille Viguerias Sigh lightskin privilege is a thing, it has nothing to do with being “division” just as much as talking about racism isn’t divisive. Being too light doesn’t bar you from jobs. It doesn’t make you a target for violence among other things. You will lose nothing by confronting your privilege to help our darkskinned sisters in their struggles. Light skinned people are told they think they are better because of their light skin, dark skinned women get compared to animals and insects and dehumanized completely the struggles aren’t the same. Just like it’s not the same when a black person calling a white person cracker as the white person say the n word.
Maisha Rush Thats what everyone thinks (referring to jobs) but plenty of my friends (purposely taking myself out of the equation for aforementioned reasons) who did not get a job because they were black. Regardless the complexion, you are still black. Thats what they see. The biggest division in the color scale is our own. But you are correct, affirmative action would pull the lightest brightest
India Camille Viguerias Again it’s been proven that if they believed you are mixed you are twice as likely to be hired then those who don’t come of as such. Your reply is Ill informed
Andrea Seals Erm pardon me for interrupting but uh Maisha.. you ain’t even light skint. 🤔
Maisha Rush Andrea Seals I am aware of that and have already stated and agreed. However I have not always been this tanned and I was speaking of my younger years. Thanks for the dig though…. smh
Andrea Seals I think we need to start remembering there is the third category of being brown skint. 
😂 Not being dark isn’t automatically light. Seems to happen a lot lately.
😂 Not being dark isn’t automatically light. Seems to happen a lot lately.
India Camille Viguerias Lmao opinion can be ill informed look at white people. They also voice from their opinions and experience, due to their privilege they are also more like to miss judge the severity of an issue.
Maisha Rush I promise I did not come on here to argue (or be reminded I am not light/dark) just voicing my opinion like everyone else.
Ebony Murphy-Root Andrea Seals Yes, but there is being dark and ‘not dark’. Being ‘not dark’ is the privileged category for skin color.
Andrea Seals Definitely Eb. Dark skint here. Lately just too many folks love claiming light when it’s not true. Even looking at the 4 of us here, India is the only one actually light skinned. The rest of us would all be “dark” because people are too lazy to think otherwise. But you and I actually are, Maisha is somewhere in the middle. All relative.
Maisha Rush How bout we work together so its not a privilege category. It seems I am being attacked because I am brown skin and now know no struggle.. my initial comment was said to say we have to unite ourselves so we can stand together instead comments were made inside and outside of this post about how I was not light skinned to which I never said that I was. I believe that is a big problem because instead of unifying we are still dividing. But thats fine, maybe not you and me. But one day we will. Be blessed my loves.
Andrea Seals No ones attacking you for being brown. We don’t care, you’re brown. Just stating the right category lol. Have a nice day.
Rachel Chance Her problems are bigger than yours, when she is at an increased risk for abuse and discrimination. You’re being ignorant, stubborn, and obtuse.
It isn’t about separating struggles, but acknowledging the nuances of oppression.
Maisha Rush I have 9 children of every complexion and I will disagree because when I moved to a new neighborhood when I was younger I was beat up everyday for being lighter. My daughter used to Come home crying because people would tease her because she isn’t black. You beautifully melanates sisters don’t know my stories. Being gang raped and called white girl. Not being dateable by dark skin men because I cannot connect with the struggle. Light and brown skinned girls get it too.. When I said her problems were not bigger than mine and vice versa I meant in the realm of coming together and not pointing fingers at who has it worse but what we are going to do to make it better. Instead I got this. Name calling. Its time we understand one another. Grow from there. Unite from there. Thats all. That was all.
Andrea Seals Some folks do this shit on purpose to make themselves the victim. 😑 I don’t even bother anymore. Can see racism but colorism… no speaka da English.
Maisha Rush But do see it everyday. Every single day. I choose. Not to play victim, but fight and build and uplift. I take no pity and I offer none. Thats why I started my business to help black people have their own so we are not subject to scraps.
Rachel Chance Your exceptional experiences aren’t representative for the majority.
Rachel Chance No one is saying you can’t experience oppression. We’re saying dark skinned women have a bit harder, and the stats speak for themselves.
Maisha Rush Not a bit harder Rachel Chance a LOT harder. A whole lot harder. I never refuted that. All I was saying was instead of increasing the divide by pointing out who has it worse which ultimately results in conversations much like this thread, we bond toget…See More
Andrea Seals The marginalized are not the divisive ones. The ones who wanna keep their privilege, are. They don’t get to be comfortable at our expense. Interesting since the OP is doing her part, checking her privilege while calling out others then you come along trying to get her to stop doing the right thing? Ok den.
Maisha Rush I never did though. I understand you are angry at the injustices, but what did I do? Say we need to stand together as sisters and fight for one another? That was th only point I made. I speak at functions, I rally and protest. I have been in meetings with government officials, non government officials, travel speaking on the injustices but to you guys, because I am not dark skin, I am no better than the enemy? I did not ask to be born this complexion or this race. I can fight for US just like any other brown skin person can. Who says I never stopped someone from using their privilege? some of you made an assumption from my face and barely bothered to read my words. At no point was I creating a divide, calling people out of their name, or telling someone they were wrong.. it was unity all along but I guess I cannot call for unity.
Andrea Seals Now you’re just making shit up LMAO stop calling us angry anytime we speak up. If anything, my comments are snarky at the most. Now you think we are calling you the enemy? You just wanna be the victim here while claiming you are above that mentality. I’m gonna go enjoy my Saturday, enjoy yours and cut the bullshit please. Stop using words like unity and division in these discussions when you ain’t about the former and the latter is gaslighting.
Maisha Rush Andrea Seals what did I make up? I never called *US* angry…again taking words out of context. I was talking to you directly about being angry about the injustices as we all are. You are making it to imply I am just calling black women angry and I wasn’t. Please do enjoy the rest of your day. I apologize my comment went left. It was never my intention.
Tisha Tyacke You sound like a poor white person who doesnt understand they have privilege too
Rachel Chance Pointing out colorism isn’t “increasing the divide.” The divide IS colorism. How is confronting the problem the issue to you?
When has pretending problems don’t exist ever been the solution? Dark skinned women are hurting, and they are rightfully angry… and we have people telling them they are the problem. Tuh. We all should be angry.
Tisha Tyacke No problem. It was problematic from jump. It definitely rubbed me the wrong way. We live and we learn 🙂
Andrea Seals
Heather Lovechild Makes a post about problematic light skints. Problematic light skint hops on with tears
Chantal Monique Come awn. My mom and sis are darker than me. My mom is black skinned. I know DAMN well/ my light skin was/is a privilege. I’ve suffered from discrimination and oppression- but not like them and not in that area. I KNOW- ignorant folk think I’m “safer”. I saw it. I saw their pain & it’s not my job to compare it to mine. My job it to be their voice. My job is to use my privilege.
I cannot understand why some light skinned folks wanna complain about “I got picked on for being light.”
My FAMILY- picked on me for being light. And SO?? So what?? What the hell?? How does that really hurt me/ besides hurt feels (as a little girl).
I feel like it’s a game of oppression olympics. Some of us have privileges that others do not. Just admit it – do what you can to help & hush about the woes – regarding being “lighter”
*ROLLS EYES*
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Heather Lovechild When colorism is so firmly rooted that she attempted to convince folks she was light
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Sharon Wood Thorndike I am definitely aware of my “light skinned” privilege and try to always be mindful of that. I ALWAYS check assholes as well that ever DARE have some negative shit to say about my darker hued brothers and sisters!
Constance Johnson goodness. I’ve seen thin people tears and NOW light skin tears. I’m getting off before I see able people tears and white people tears
Heather Lovechild Man I saw the thin tears about an hour ago. I had to walk away from that
Constance Johnson so disgusting. no one wants to admit their privilege. always pointing fingers and we’re all one, and we all have problems, see i’m just like you, i don’t have privilege, i have to suffer too. just shut up! everyone has problems, but people have privileges too
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Mae West Washington I see it to often dark get played to the left for light shit. The moms from fresh prince, how Paula Patton is glorified for being light, but Meagan good still have to prove herself. I’m light and I see how most dark skinned women a treated as if she isn’t as sexy or beautiful and I’ve always noticed it. I hate it I’m tired of it and as long as I breath air I will stand up for my dark skinned goddesses because y’all/they deserve it. Our race deserve it.
Shanythia Cook Marginalized people can still be bigots.
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Sigh. I am so confused and this negative energy had my vibes all off. I was angry all day. I cannot even with some people, I wasn’t mad at the name calling, even though it was childish and showed lack and inability to have a grown conversation without attitude I was mad at the fact that they could not look past my complexion. Like you took an OPINION and turned it into ‘tear Maisha Down day’. But some will say I am again trying to play the victim but for those who know me I, that is not even in my DNA, like foreal, don’t touch me, don’t sympathize, nothing.
What are your thoughts? Do you think I spoke incorrectly or am I just expecting unity too soon, because THIS, this is not it.
*decided to leave the names, they may want the fame.
-Rush
about dang time.
I have finally come to my senses and sought professional help. All of my anxiety issues and obsessive compulsive issues have been temporarily laid to rest. I have found clarity and now realize, like I tell my clients, I cannot do it all by myself. No matter how much I want to, need to, or think I have to, I just cannot. It has been destroying me trying to go at it alone because as my plate gets full, things are also falling off. I have been missing opportunities left and right and that is no good for my brand.
So I have gone to who I always run to in the times that I feel overwhelmed, my good friends Nikki and Jennifer with STS media. I feel like a commercial but let me tell you, these ladies are amazing. I am so grateful that they not only exist but are awesome, welcoming ladies as well.
I cannot lie, while I have something crossed off of my to do list I still feel overwhelmed and I can honestly say that most days I do kind of feel like superwoman, but today I hung my cape up. I did not get one thing accomplished besides this blog and I absolutely must close out a client contract before bed.
To be honest I don’t even feel like blogging anymore. Sooooo
-Rush
For you who is struggling. Its okay.
Today I go through trials, tribulations, and tested faith just like anyone else but I have learned to go through them differently. I have found that simply pushing through is not always the answer, it just will not suffice because in addition to this you must incorporate love and gratitude. Although this seems to be a hard thing to do, I assure you that by shifting your focus to giving love to someone else and showing gratitude even when there seems to be nothing to be grateful for. I stumbled across something I wrote two years ago and I would like to share it with you. So many of us feel the weight of life resting on our backs to the point where we can no longer stand up straight, but you MUST stand up straight. Let no man, woman, or life occurrence force you to hang low. It will get better. Do you want to know how I know? Because it is already better, you are just resting in it. Look up and see. Smile. Say hello to a perfect stranger. Hug your child. Feel better soon my loves. #PositiveVibesOnly
Nothing lasts forever
Good morning. You know I never really have a topic, I just start typing. Today nothing really comes to mind.
I told you already some of the struggles my family has endured. I don’t want you to think that it’s smooth sailing now because it isn’t. We still have bill collectors knocking on our door and we still have children that need things. I’m not talking about materialistic things; I am talking everyday bread and butter. Everyone struggles sometimes. Everyone falls short of where they thought they would be. You shouldn’t stay there. It’s hard. I know it’s hard. But you have to find that place within to remember that nothing lasts forever.
Trials are like a whirlwind. You can feel the winds blowing and you can feel when they get stronger, you must first know that the eye is coming and to brace yourself. When you are in the eye of the whirlwind it may beat you up and you may come out a little bruised. But you are stronger for it and when it passes you will be proud of yourself. You will be more confident of yourself. And that’s what it’s all about.
You can look back and see how far you have come and it will give you a sense of accomplishment because while you were in the storm you thought you would not make it, yet here you are; standing.
I am not going to sit here and tell you that life will be better after that whirlwind because it won’t be. Storms will come and go, but they get easier to bear every time. And what’s better is you will be able to encourage someone who will go through the same thing. You will be placed in a moment of life where you have the opportunity to uplift someone from your heart because you have been there and that reminiscent moment will make you smile when you realize just how far you have come.
So no matter where you are today. No matter what you are doing, no matter what your struggle; someone else has been there and they made it through. You will as well. Know that you are a strong person. Know that you can endure. Know that you will win.
Hang in there. Be encouraged. Be encouraging. And smile. You can do it.
-Rush
I finally did it.
I have worked just about every job known to man. I have started my own companies to catapult me to where I desired to be and then stopped. I have done mlm companies, you name it I have done it more than likely. I have written a book, no you cannot read it because its from another chapter in my life, like chapter two and I am now on chapter seven. I have worked 2, 3, and even four jobs simultaneously to get my life on order and keep it there.
I have been im several long term relationships. I have been married and divorced. Repeat. And now at 37 years old I have finally managed to do it. I am finally exhausted. I have reached my point of beat.
Lately I have been working until five in the morning and getting up at eight. Homeschooling, building other peoples businesses, managing my own, doing my books (accounting) working on another book I have already contracted, looking for a new home, trying to manage a new semi vegetarian diet and getting to the gym, potty training, packing, general cleaning, planning a New Year’s event, planning the next Heels&Hustle event, and trying to learn the stock market. I should be 22 trying to do all these things but I waited to long in life and now I wanted to do everything so God has made it so that I am. I am not at all ungrateful because I prayed for God to fill my plate, and He did. Now I just need him to enlarge my plate. I am literally tripping and stumbling over these blessings and trting to keep up is exhausting. So I took a moment ro say hello and now back to the grind. Keep your head up and prayers made known, He hears you. Just be ready or you’ll be tired like me, see.
-Rush
So perplexed.
Hello lovely people of the iRush world! I hope your day has been not only an eventful one but a productive one as well.
I have a couple doses of good news for you guys but I am unsure whether or not to disclose this super news. You know how people say don’t jinx yourself? Well, the thing is I am not superstitious at all but I do not want to leave anything to chance. Ugh, I just don’t know! I want to share but hubby says no anyhow. But I will say, when you wait for God to move he will absolutely move! So many blessings in my personal as well as my business life. Sometimes you just have to be still and trust God. I know sometimes it gets hard because, though you may feel discouraged you never want to feel defeated. That is the time to trust God, it s also the hardest time to.
Do you want a million dollar business? Then you need to stop walking around with a hundred dollar mindset! I am blogging to prove to you that all that you ever wanted to do in life is possible. I am actual living breathing proof and I have opened my life up to you like a book. I have had major setbacks and disappointments in life and even sometimes in my current life as well but you must keep pushing. Accept what is now and move forward to greater. I have been raised in a single parent household, then a stepfather. I know what its like to not have your biological father around or even care. I know what its like to go without food, lights, and basic necessities. I have been verbally, mentally and physically abused by loved ones and strangers. I have been sexually assaulted, raped, humiliated. I have been married and divorced. I was in an extremely abusive relationship. I have lost a daughter, I have lost parent. I have been skinny, I have been fat. I suffered from bulimia and anorexia. I have self mutilated (I used to pierce different parts of my body as a way to release pain and frustration. I have been in custody battles I have lost a child temporarily in this matter. I have run businesses. I have built businesses. I have done mlm. I have strained relationships. I deal with rejection and pain. I deal with low self esteem. You name it, I pretty much have been there. And through it all I have always known that I am bigger than it all. I said all this to say, I have been there. And I know it will work out.
I love what I do and I love the fact that I can help other people do it too. It feels good to know that God will continue to use my pain for encouragement.
I said all of this to say, Get you a Me in your life. I am honest and dependable and all i want to do is see you succeed.
-Rush
