Bad parenting

Everything I do is for my family. From the moment I wake up, through meditations, manifestations, and prayer. To the moment I lay my head on the pillow, or floor depending on where I am, my every though and action is family. More specifically my babies.

Well let me tell you about one of my ungrateful crumb snatchers!

Nevermind I dropped out of law school to pursue a full time position in homeschooling.

No matter the fact that I could be lavishly living with a $260,000 salary with an company that shall remain nameless.

Oh! And God forbid I bring up the fact that I have not seen hide nor hair of an 8 hour sleep-fest in YEARS!

I read to my children everyday, spend quality time with them both collectively and individually. I steal them away on surprise ventures. We cook and clean together. We share intimate moments together and we have phenomenal relationships.

Yesterday, and this is something I strongly urge you to do with all of your children, Ty said something mean to a younger sibling in a moment of anger. After talking to him about using his words to encourage not demean, I had him write on a piece of paper what he loved about everyone in the house, what he wished each person would do more of, and something he disliked that each person does.

Well, he gets to me and he says he loves that I am nice, he doesn’t like when I fuss, AND GET THIS! What he wished I would do more of is……..

Love him! Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!

These ingrates! They don’t care about us.

In the changed words of Megan The Stallion,

“Rushbunch kids give a f*ck about parents feelings”


Because I want to.

People that start their own businesses are often encouraged to find out and expand on their ‘why’. Why do you want to do this thing that you are doing? Why do you continue putting forth so much effort when sometimes it seems pointless?

Your ‘why’ is meant to be a foundation of what will keep you going on the days you are tired and want to quit. Most times people will say that their why is their children or their parents. Sometimes its for their spouses or simply because they no longer want to be where they are now in their current situation which could be anything from homelessness or brokenness.

I can make pages of a list of what keeps me going, I won’t, but I can. I have a large family whom I love so very dearly. I have a husband that inspires me to keep going or quit because he has my back regardless. But for me, my why is so simple. It wasn’t always simple as I would rack my brain over whats more important to me to place on my ‘why’ list and as I push forward my list is actually quite short. Really, beyond short because it consists of only one reason. Because I want to.

Oftentimes we struggle and get so lost in life and devote ourselves to so many causes and people that we lose ourselves. I gave up plenty of things to be an awesome wife and mother, yeah I said it, AWESOME! But in our giving, as women we have to remember that we are just as important and the important people in our lives.

This is not something you always know, this is definitely a learned mindset but now that I have learned it, I am happily passing it on. So the next time someone asks you what is your ‘why’, simply hold your head up high and with pride say, because I want to.



Who raised y’all?

Anybody else raising assholes? No? Just me? Mmkay. Y’all are clearly lying to yourselves because these children are ruthless!

1. McRush bought Sara a Barbie dream house for her birthday because her sister got one for her birthday. Fast forward to tonight..

“Y’all need to clean this room because it’s a mess. You don’t want ME to clean it because I’m coming in with a trash bag” โ†In perfect black mama magic. (Sara) “You can throw that dream house away too!” I legit almost called her a name. ๐Ÿ˜‚โ˜บ๏ธ

2. Reggie, the oldest, and Gabriel, #6 (who is only 5 btw) are in the den ROASTING each other and in this house NOBODY is off limits! I’m in the office minding my DAMN business…

“You smell like old nachos!” -#1 “you smell like fat people!” -6 ๐Ÿ˜ฎ


Absolutely NOBODY!

“Mommy doesn’t stink!” Tha Fuuuu?! ๐Ÿ˜ถ

Bruh. I swear! I just bust out laughing. I cannot stand them!

Scenario #3

My boys know to hold the door open for us, the girls. As we are leaving a client today, I tell the RushBunch to head to the car. Thomas holds the door. Gabriel is yelling at Thomas “Mom said get in the car!” “I’m holding the door.” “MOM SAID GET IN THE CAR!!” “So get in the car.” YOU need to listen to mom and get in the car TOO!”

Why. Just why? ๐Ÿ˜‘

Its like this all the time. Just NO filter around here. I am the most sensitive in the house although I am not allowed to show it because we all know what happened last time I did.

Dear God, what did I do to you? -Me

Why are my children FARTING on each other? You know what…. *logs off*

This is the one you have been waiting for.

Mark this day.

December 12, 2019 11:11p.m.

These hands are tired. You know how you have the fit bit watches that track your steps? I need one that will track my hands because I guarantee my hands work miles my feet will never see. Today, as I carried on with my day, much as usual. I noticed my hands are always busy. Whether I am sitting or standing my hands are still moving. You ever think about that?

Lets start with this morning. Before anything else moved, my hands did to slap the snooze button on my alarm clock at 6 a.m. I moved my covers back and sat up. I turned off the rest of my alarms then reached over to cover and kiss Lady Ava on her cheek. Then I reached down to properly place my shoes to put them on. I can go on but you get my drift. All the way until right now typing this blog on my phone. I can trace my hands all throughout the day.

I am tired but still far from going to bed..

I never thought I would be where I am today. As grateful as I am, I am still oftentimes in shock. Did you know as a child I never wanted children. ๐Ÿ˜ฎ


I lost the memo somewhere in life. Not only do I have 10 of those crumb snatchers, I homeschool them. Not only do I homeschool, I WORK from home with my business.

What ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿพ was๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿพ I๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿพ thinking๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿพ? Oh!๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพ I wasn’t! ๐Ÿ˜‚

For those of you that think I have it all together… HA! ๐Ÿ—ฃ๏ธ Listen! My LIFE runs my life. Half the time I don’t know if I’m coming or going.

I told McRush I needed a mini vacation to just be. Being a mom is a lot. Being a wife is a lot. Running a business is a lot. I got it ALL!

I need a nap and my ponytail is too tight! I’m rambling on like y’all care. I know you care! ๐Ÿ˜

I just wanted you guys to be assured that we all have our days as parents. We forget who we are because we are so busy being mom, wife, friend, confidant, worker- that we forget what our favorite color REALLY is or what it is we like to do (the famous mom answer is sleep).

I look at the smiles a feel the hugs and I know for sure I wouldn’t change it for the world.

I still need a vacay though!

I quit.

Today was a very busy yet lazy day. I woke up this morning with ideas swirling in my head as if ancestors poured all that they could into me overnight.

You see, last night I played the lottery and I didn’t win. I low key want to file a grievance to get my 4 dollars back. I fasted all day, manifested it, planned it out, and spoke gratitude all day… that shit didn’t work. I was ill. Not sick just Philly slang for mad.

Some days I have my WTF moments. I mean I pour and pour and pour. I have changed my entire life to be and offer my best at all times and I can’t get a cool mill? STRAIGHT UP!? ๐Ÿคฃ

Nah. Foreal I took it as a lesson and I definitely listened. I am grateful for my spiritual connection that keeps me grounded and humble. And for that reason I was poured into like a favorite vessel, knowledge. I literally hit the floor running this morning. Briefly halted by Ava deciding she wants to have a bowel movement on my bed. ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพ

I am an implementer and a healer of broken things and people. I am an empath that is why my business of coaching and consulting is perfect for me. I worked all day adding tools and resources and TONS of research…. on my day off.

I spent so much time in my business I forgot to cook until 630p ๐Ÿ˜ฌ so I whipped up some mashed potatoes, stuffing (from a box), and baked cauliflower parts. Smh. My children looked at me like I was crazy. THEY ain’t crazy though… they ate it.

I also had an epiphany. I unobligated โ† yup made up word, from things that are not yielding me the income I have been working so hard towards and/or are not beneficial to my bottom line.

I thank the ancestors for my sense of empowerment as a replacement to my entitlement and I look forward to the great things to come.



Whew. Today was a much needed unplug from everything business and homeschool.

We gave the children the day off (really US, we gave us the day off). In addition I stayed committed to not being committed to anything work related today. I let the Rush Bunch watch television, YES, television while I hid out in the Transit and took a brief nap! ๐Ÿ—ฃ๏ธ LISTEN! There is no nap greater than a stolen one.

We are doing great in business but not yet to a point where we feel comfortable hiring YET. But I already have a young lady in training to add to our consulting roster PLUS McRush coming on full time! Oh we are in there.

Those are the wins for the day. The losses….

1. I am almost over cloth diapering. Ian anyway. ๐Ÿคข

2. This vegan thing. I slipped a little and now my cycle is MAD heavy! I need to find more structure.

I bet you guys thought homeschooling was going to make the list….again. Surprisingly, no. I think we found our new groove (again) because a few weeks ago I was wondering if there was even a brain working at ANY capacity in my house. Sheesh. Turns out, we all needed a break. Now everyone is back to their academics and loving it. Thank GOD because I was ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿพthis close to running away from home.

I started putting a binder together for those looking to venture into the homeschool world. This binder will be for 2-4 year olds with some advanced work that could be used for children as old as 6. I also want to start booking lmommy and mel conferences to display how simple homeschooling your toddler can be as well as how beneficial it is whether you choose to home or public school your child. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿพ It’s a work in progress but I know it is needed. I also may or may not consider creating a co-op and association to assist more hands on with parents just starting out. Eh. Who knows.


My children want locs. As excited as I am, that’s 8 heads! My oldest can’t have any due to his position at work… (don’t get me started) and Ava can’t choose so its only eight. (HA! only 8)

I think that’s all I have for now. I will keep you posted. Thanks for reading.


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