Mama needs a break! I don’t care judge me. Raising a house full of children, running a busy firm, 33 weeks pregnant, DURING covid19. BRUH!
God wakes me up every morning at 6:48 and refuses to tell me why so I am forced to just be up and productive. 🙄 When I do get to go to bed around midnight, if I’m lucky, baby decides NOW is the best time to do the Macarena on my bladder. I am constantly asking the ancestors what I did in my past life to subject my current life to such umcooperativeness ← yes I know that’s not a word Leave 👏🏾 me 👏🏾 alone 👏🏾!
Between black lives Matter being an actual issue, trump being somebody’s president (not mine) and countries shutting us out of their world, I SWEAR I am living in the book 1984 by George Orwell. Is this really the matrix or am I being punked like Jim Carrey in The Truman Show? I’m no conspiracy theorist but come on now! What gives? I’m also not religious (any more) but I’m this close 👌🏾 to looking up and declaring I see Jesus in the sky. Lord take me nah!
Sweet baby Jesus lying in a manger, what is going on and what did I bring my children into. This has GOT to be a sin. What did God say to me to convince me to THIS? It was a setup. No way He told this all to me and I was like “Yeah! That sounds hella dope, sign me up G!” Naw. Not buying it. G got jokes and I’on think they’re funny.
What are you guys doing to keep sane? No foreal, I need tips. Speak up!!
Today I go through trials, tribulations, and tested faith just like anyone else but I have learned to go through them differently. I have found that simply pushing through is not always the answer, it just will not suffice because in addition to this you must incorporate love and gratitude. Although this seems to be a hard thing to do, I assure you that by shifting your focus to giving love to someone else and showing gratitude even when there seems to be nothing to be grateful for. I stumbled across something I wrote two years ago and I would like to share it with you. So many of us feel the weight of life resting on our backs to the point where we can no longer stand up straight, but you MUST stand up straight. Let no man, woman, or life occurrence force you to hang low. It will get better. Do you want to know how I know? Because it is already better, you are just resting in it. Look up and see. Smile. Say hello to a perfect stranger. Hug your child. Feel better soon my loves. #PositiveVibesOnly
Nothing lasts forever
Good morning. You know I never really have a topic, I just start typing. Today nothing really comes to mind.
I told you already some of the struggles my family has endured. I don’t want you to think that it’s smooth sailing now because it isn’t. We still have bill collectors knocking on our door and we still have children that need things. I’m not talking about materialistic things; I am talking everyday bread and butter. Everyone struggles sometimes. Everyone falls short of where they thought they would be. You shouldn’t stay there. It’s hard. I know it’s hard. But you have to find that place within to remember that nothing lasts forever.
Trials are like a whirlwind. You can feel the winds blowing and you can feel when they get stronger, you must first know that the eye is coming and to brace yourself. When you are in the eye of the whirlwind it may beat you up and you may come out a little bruised. But you are stronger for it and when it passes you will be proud of yourself. You will be more confident of yourself. And that’s what it’s all about.
You can look back and see how far you have come and it will give you a sense of accomplishment because while you were in the storm you thought you would not make it, yet here you are; standing.
I am not going to sit here and tell you that life will be better after that whirlwind because it won’t be. Storms will come and go, but they get easier to bear every time. And what’s better is you will be able to encourage someone who will go through the same thing. You will be placed in a moment of life where you have the opportunity to uplift someone from your heart because you have been there and that reminiscent moment will make you smile when you realize just how far you have come.
So no matter where you are today. No matter what you are doing, no matter what your struggle; someone else has been there and they made it through. You will as well. Know that you are a strong person. Know that you can endure. Know that you will win.
Hang in there. Be encouraged. Be encouraging. And smile. You can do it.