Stuck with me. 🤷🏾‍♀️

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I woke up this morning to alerts, yes plural, that my social media accounts have been deactivated. 🤯

I am a little disheartened by it because it’s almost a regular part of my life. I post my family, trips, and just overall the fun stuff we do. I am more saddened because the main thing that I post is homeschooling tips, tricks, and hacks. ❤️

I can’t say I’m too disappointed though. Social media should NOT be part of my life though. I know that and you know that but it is what it is right? Posting is fine it’s when you get caught up in that doom scroll. You look up and hours have passed by. 😬

Ironically, a couple of days ago, I told McRush that I was going to get off of social media because it was consuming too much of my time. So, I guess the real problem is, I didn’t get to do it on my time. I’m kinda spoiled like that. 🤭

You know what that means right? 👀

Blogging is now my only outlet. I hope you love it here because you’re about to see more of me. 🤣

With that being said. I have been doing good on my journey. I am exercising 3-4 times a week (actually breaking a sweat). I haven’t checked the scale but I lost 10 pounds last month so I am aiming to do the same this month. I started at 193 for the month of November. 

Wish me luck! 🥰

This is an old ai pic I used as a goal mark for my weightloss.

Can you see me? 👀

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I’m just poking my head in here to check in. Yes, I have been committed to me these past few days.

I dont think I mentioned it on here 🤔 but I have been exercising adding 5 minutes each week.

What I have learned about myself is some things, like exercise, are best done if I ease into it. This was a huge shift for me as I normally am a “jump in with both feet” kind of girl. But disciplined tasks I cannot do like that. Starting a business, both feet in. Started a family, both feet in. Even going back to school, both feet in as I’d pick up 6-8 classes a semester. But exercising? Oh baby, I’m quitting on day three. 🤣

When I first started exercising I was at 10 minutes a day. Something small that I can definitely commit to, and add 5 minutes per week. This week I am at 30 minutes and I have been pretty consistent only missing 2 days overall. I also learned that I NEED rest days. I was afraid that “skipping a day” would throw my desire off and at first it did. I found myself making an excuse like “another day won’t hurt”. 🥴 Oh the lies we tell ourselves. 🤭

But I schedule my Rest days and that’s something that im still playing with. But for now it’s Monday Wednesday Friday 30 minutes Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday are rest days and Sunday is a light day like the vibration plate, which I also learned that you need rest days for. I have incorporated the vibration plate onto my workout as I have seen good results on my thighs because I do alot of stretching exercises while on it.

Today is a workout day and I happily did my 30 minutes.

What I haven’t figured out is walking. I thought walking daily was good but apparently you need rest from that too so now I’m wondering if walking should be my rest day agenda. Or is that doing too much?

What do you think? Help me out please. ❤️

A new day

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I know, I have finished my 7 day challenge and do not have to blog today but I am so friggin excited.

I didn’t realize that I timed the challenge perfectly as we enter a new month and I started today off right!

I slept in which I never do so yaay me for prioritizing rest. But I was amped this morning and got my 30 minute workout in. I actually would have went longer had my son not come in and reminded me to take him to work. Everything just aligned 🤗

Then, I did not eat before 11:30 nor after 6:30. I also read this morning. 😊

I did do some research and I have to better toggle my workouts because I think I am not benefiting like I should. So I THINK I want to workout Monday Wednesday and Friday.  My walking days will be Tuesday Thursday. My absolurest day is Sunday. Which is also my laundry and cleaning day plus I will be cooking Sunday dinner and creating curriculum for the week so I’ll still be busy just not exercising per se.

I am doing better with what I eat as well. I am swapping out white for whole wheat or finding a different alternative all together.

Like I said yesterday, doing this challenge showed me where I could be doing better so thats what I’ll be doing.

Thank you for following along and also thank you to those who messaged me their struggles and encouragement. It is much appreciated. If you’re not following me, go ahead and click the button. Also, across all platforms is Maisha Rush (you can just Google me).

I appreciate you. Let’s goal! ❤️

Accountability day 7

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My God tuhday.

When I tell you that I am so glad that this is over. 🤣

That is so sad. All that i required of me in this 7 day focus was commitment to myself. If it were one of my children I would have jumped at the opportunity no questions asked. I would have shown up with a smile and my best attitude. Instead, I met myself daily as nothing more than a box that needed to be checked. 😩

I am, however, glad that I did this. It shows me just how far I have gotten from making myself a priority first. What I have learned in my 25 years of parenting is that showing up for others wholly whilst not myself being whole, is an exact recipe for disaster.

Today alone reminded me of that. I spent the entire day moving. Running around getting last minute costume pieces. Doing hair, cooking, cleaning, teaching, chauffeuring, laundry, errands. And still managed to make it to my sister’s to show up for my mom.

Everyone seemed to be having a “me” day so I pushed through, alone. Sometimes it’s like that in this house. I just settled for it. It is what it is now. But I am mostly bothered when I am drowning and then everyone wonders “what’s wrong with mom”, like tonight. I didn’t get a chance to eat today so I did eat past 6:30. I never starve myself. Thats my one rule. Been there done that. But as I was cleaning the kitchen I was asked a question to which the response was “I buy the food, cook the food, serve the food, clean my mess and half the time no thank you, no meaningful assistance, but much complaining. Too much food. Not enough food. I can barely fix my plate without fixing seconds first.

Some days I am tired. I keep going but sometimes I want someone to cook for me, cater to me, shop for me.

I will climb over hot coals in the middle of an erupting volcano in the middle of a firestorm for my family but I sometimes feel like they won’t do the same. Crazy thing is, most moms feel his way and you’ll never ever know.

I am an open book and my experiences are not much different from other mothers. If you’re a mom. *hugs* If you’re a father *hugs* I dont know your struggles but I see my husband and whilst he doesn’t mention them, he wears them and I see them. ❤️

We’re all just trying to make it happily through this life.

I completed this assignment and now know what I need to work on in order to rededicate myself to a healthier happier me.

Thanks for going on this journey with me and I hope I gained a follower or two. I appreciate you being here. Don’t be a stranger. 🥰

Accountability whatever day it is. 🥴

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I feel so sick today. But tasks complete and rest is earned.

I have lost a couple of pounds and while that was A goal, it wasn’t THE goal.

I wanted to prove it to myself that I could do it. I have no problem showing up for everyone else around me but I always seem to come up short when I get to me. Not because I dont think I am worth it but because “I’ll do it later” is always an option when it comes to myself. I really hate that BUT I do love that my family can count on me. Even if I am wearing mismatched socks and bags under my eyes. Luckily I have a husband who pours into me but we all know, I have to do better by me.

How about you? You holding up your end of the bargain on you? 👀

Accountability day 5

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You know, I’m glad that I did this experiment. It really let’s me know, HOW BAD I FELL OFF! 😭 Guess how many of my focused habits I done today. One. 1. Uno. I can’t even count the blogging because although it’s night time it’s after twelve so it’s technically tomorrow.

I didn’t exercise because I haven’t been feeling and soreness although I have been working out daily. But really, that’s an excuse because I could have simply stuck to this experiment for 2 more days and then rested. I read that you must have rest days for optimal results. while I already knew that, I thought that because my workouts were not high intensity I could do it daily but apparently not. But I am all.about H.I.T.S so let’s call it what it is. Self sabotage. Because I was looking for a reason not to dedicate myself today. 🤦🏾‍♀️ Welp, seek and you shall find.

I actually DIDN’T eat before 11:30 this morning but I most definitely did eat after 6:30 p.m. Do you know the crazy part? I actually ate better throughout the day. I was very intentional. Just to throw it all away. 🥴

I did not walk because honestly, I was already defeated. I walk in the evenings. Its easier to stick.to when you’re already on track for the day but if not it’s like, it’s not even worth it (even though it is).

I did read. Both a physical and an audio book. But that’s prerty simple, all I need is an excuse to read and im going to do it everytime.

And obviously I did not blog (in time). So I am sure that it’s safe to say that today was a bust. I’m still excited to try again tomorrow so all is not lost.

I’m Hella sleepy 😴 so I’m going to bed.

I dont think I’ve had a perfect day yet so fingers crossed for tomorrow. Wish me the best!

OH!!! H.I.T.S. is an acronym from Rush Consulting Firm. It stands for Honesty, Integrity, Transparency, and Self accountability. It keeps you from.making excuses for your not so good habits. ❤️

Accountability day 4…😬

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Okay, surely, if you’ve been reading my blogs, you know what task I missed on yesterday. Yes. Yes it was blogging. 🤦🏾‍♀️ If I didn’t know any better, I’d think I have A.D.D. but I know that I am all over the place because I have nothing written down and what IS written down I don’t look at. 😩 What am I going to do with me?

I spent yesterday running to doctor’s appointments, both mine and Ian’s. Ian had his one hour EEG where we got to learn how a machine can tell what your brain is doing. Surely I knew that this existed but the depth of ability of a machine was very fascinating. In fact, since Ty wants to be a neurosurgeon (God I hope this sticks because that would be perfect for him), I found out about a certification that he could get that would allow hime to get his foot in the door in about a year! My appointment was less fun. I went to the dentist and if you have been following me long enough, you know all of my secrets. One secret is that I had most of my back teeth pulled because with each pregnancy came molar problems and slowly but surely I had to have them removed. So, if you see me eating a steak cooked anyway BUT medium rare, it’s a front. 🤣 I couldn’t chew properly if you paid me a Trillion dollars. 💰

Welp, my next dental appointment is Wednesday to prep my mouth for partials. And, despite already having paid thousands of dollars out of pocket, my next visit cost $737 and some change. 😭

Uhm, why can’t life be free and when/where did I agree to this current payment system. 🤭

Anyhow. That was my day. And although I didn’t blog as I should have yesterday, im giving myself a pat on the back for staying mostly consistent even whilst having a full load and driving two and a half hours each way to get Isaiah from my mom’s house.

Plus. I got to see my mommy. 🤗

Ps. Wanna hear something childish? Yesterday, I hugged my mom going out the door and my children hugged my mom afterwards. I got a slight attitude, when my mom asked what’s wrong, I told her that my children hugged over mine. 🤪 My mom, being the greatness that she is, wiped away their hug and let me give her another one.

Who has a better mom than me?  🎶nobody🎶

🤣🤣🤣🤣😆

Pps

I did get on the scale this morning 🤭 but to see what it said you have to tead tonight’s blog. This is, after all, about yesterday. 🏃🏾‍♀️👀

Meh. Accountability day 2/3

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If you read my blog from yesterday then you know that I am on day two of accountability but day three of action hence the title. So do not be alarmed when you see day four tomorrow. 🤪

So today started of well. I got up at 7:30, yes, I know from a workout point of view that’s pretty late but im not a gym rat 😅. I did my workout, I read, I did not eat after 6:30, and I am about to go for my walk. Just know that anything can happen at my house at any point so that walk is tbd and I will check in with you tomorrow about that but I’m pretty confident. 😬

(For those that dont know confidence is the nemesis of parent life. You just never know what life is going to throw at you. 🤣)

Lastly, Of course, I’m blogging.😊

Its co-op day so instead of our regular morning agenda in homeschooling we spent the first hours doing arts and crafts before we headed out. Unfortunately we couldn’t stay long, I just wanted to keep my commitment and show my face. Ian had a neurology appointment all the way down town which, when we got there they rescheduled it because one of the eeg machines were down. 😑

That was really the highlight of the day. Did some laundry. 🤷🏾‍♀️ Tuesdays are usually pretty hectic but this one was pretty easy. Drop college kids off-teach-pick up college kids- co op- doctor appointment- home. 😩

Currently cooking dinner and prepping for class tomorrow. Thats it.

I did weigh myself although I vowed that I wouldn’t do that because what I HAVE learned in this journey is the numbers will deter and defeat you daily. Ain’t nobody got time for that! 🤣 I came in at a smooth 200.1 pounds 🥴. I’m trying to lie to myself and say since my cycle is on, it’s about 2 pounds extra but im not buying it. I’ll take the big win when I get on that scale at the end of my 7 days with no period and pretend that it’s that much more of a victory.

Aye. A win is a win. 🤗

Accountability day 1….ish

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So for those who do not know, honestly I dont know how that would be possible if you follow me on any platform because I have been telling everyone who will listen, I lost around 120 pounds. Yup, I went from 288 to 168.

*a brief moment of celebration* 🥳

Thank you. 🥰

Well. In August I went on a family trip to Myrtle Beach. I do not like the beach. I do not like anything about the beach. I dont like sand between my toes, the dirty water, annoying birds hovering, sun beaming down with little to no shade, not the wind blowing sand in you face and or food. I dont like being in the midst of people, I dont like the random dogs walking and peeing in the water (like seriously, eww). There is nothing and I do mean nothing that I like about the beach BUT I took one for the team. Next day SWOLLEN. I mean, I gained 21 pounds within the course of 2 days.  I got tested at my doctor, did a water fast. Nothing was wrong besides, I am allergic. You jeard me right. I believe I am allergic to the beach. I am for sure allergic to seafood and salt makes me instantly swell. While all of this is new to me at 40 years plus, I make no excuses.

Well, I was like, meh, 189 isn’t too bad, I can casually work it off. Nope. I kept ballooning. I got off track and couldn’t find the motivation to get back on. I literally settled. Next time I stepped on the scale was because 2 pairs of jeans fit a little too snug. Do you know what the scale said? Of course you don’t 🙄 I dont know why I asked as if we were sitting amongst one another. 🤦🏾‍♀️

201 🤯. Get. The. Fuck. Outta. Here.

I panicked just a little but I know what I need to do because I got this far. And do you think that I did it? No. No I did not. I got on the scale today and it said 203.4. 😭 Bruh, what am I actually doing here!?! 😬

So today, I sat and made a list of disciplined focus with the hopes of holding myself accountable without overwhelming myself. Let’s not forget that I have a husband and 10 children in the house. I also homeschool and run a Firm. AND I just registered for a statistics class so I can brush up. I am also the cook and runner of the family. Doctor appointments, practices, jobs. I know my limits.

The focused disciplines for the week of October 25 are:

  1. No eating past 6:30 or before 11;30
  2. Exercise 30 minutes daily
  3. Walk nightly
  4. Read daily
  5. Blog

I did not get to walk this evening and I ate some broccoli as I cooked [late] dinner. I feel pretty bummed about that but im blogging to hold myself accountable. While this was not outlined until today, I did get all the tasks except blogging done yesterday. I’m not off to a horrible start just a bumpy one. 😊

What are your goals for the week?