Hello my loves!
Not quite settled into our new home but I am definitely settled into the joy of having a place to call my own when it’s all said and done. Its been a long road traveled for McRush and I. I remember first talking about buying a home with him; We were in our college math class, one we both hated by the way. That seems like many moons ago. Either way, we made it!
This, however is not what I wanted to blog to you guys about. I wanted to talk to you about gossip. Its such an ugly thing and unfortunately, sometimes even unintentionally, most of us do it. I know I did. I grew out of it and moved away from it and to keep the temptation away, my circle of trusted friends is very small and one that does not have room for negatively, ever.
In this home buying journey with the slight tinge of homelessness, I found myself with alot of free time to do some soul searching, as some would say. But it was more of a search of “who am I and why am I here”. I am happy to say I have found the answers to both of those questions and have found solice and much forgiveness for myself. I have ultimately grown closer to the God of my understanding and can now grow because of it.
I reflected much upon my teenage years. You know, when I was stupid and made a lot of mistakes. Friends that I often think about thst no longer talk to me because our paths are now different but I am grateful to have gone through life with them in it. The person that I am today is strong because of them and the silliness thereof.
I do wonder now looking back, did they grow? I mean, obviously their physical appearance shows signs of growth but I mean mentally and spiritually. I think back to the times I was often used as the scapegoat and for a long time it hurt because I could never understand why my kindness was also my weakness. But now, I am just grateful.
I just wanted to remind you that words hurt and for people like me, sensitive, it hurts for a long time. Twenty years I have been pondering this and finally I had to learn to accept what I could not change and use it as a tool of knowledge.
I said all this to say, mind your words. You words mean something. In the effort to leave an impacting memory on those you love as well as a legacy, mind them. Use them wisely. May they embrace all those who come in contact with you that you leave a smile upon their heart. Namaste.
(Two of the three of my heartbeats. #SistersAndBrothers)